Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Anxiety - the city of Hopelessville

Oh Girlfriend! 

 I wanted to talk a little bit today about anxiety.  So many women do experience this at one time or another, but for some it can be a debilitating season of life.  For some reason I went to Hopelessville and had a major darkness of depression and anxiety in my life for about 4 years.  I call it the black whole because I have never felt so hopeless in my life, in fact I never knew that you could feel so out of yourself in despair.  I could really understand how people would want to take their own life because it makes you feel that bad.  I could be in a room full of people who were living life and I felt like I was there but no one could really see me and I felt as though I was somehow separated by this terrible feeling that I could not explain other than I felt so sad and scared all the time.  I would see people normal as could be laughing and having a good time and I felt like I was dying.  I would never wish this on my worst enemy.  But, God brought me through this battle.  I had to take some medicine for a while to get my hormones back in balance but the most important lesson I learned from this terrible time in my life was this.  I could hear God saying to me, Belinda do you trust me with everything in your life?  For so long I struggled with this.  I realized I was not in control and He is.  Anything can happen to us at anytime, but God takes care of us.  I finally had to make a decision to give it all to God or continue to let the enemy try to destroy me.  I know who I belong to and it is not Satan.  God is my Father and I know He loves you and me and there is nothing we cannot get through when we say, Yes Lord!  Girlfriend's times will come in your life and I pray you know that God will see you through and that you will have friends around to remind you of His love.

Yes, I left Hopelessville and moved on down the road to smileyville, May your day be filled with all that is good!  Until next time remember you are not alone! 

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