Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Anxiety - the city of Hopelessville
I wanted to talk a little bit today about anxiety. So many women do experience this at one time or another, but for some it can be a debilitating season of life. For some reason I went to Hopelessville and had a major darkness of depression and anxiety in my life for about 4 years. I call it the black whole because I have never felt so hopeless in my life, in fact I never knew that you could feel so out of yourself in despair. I could really understand how people would want to take their own life because it makes you feel that bad. I could be in a room full of people who were living life and I felt like I was there but no one could really see me and I felt as though I was somehow separated by this terrible feeling that I could not explain other than I felt so sad and scared all the time. I would see people normal as could be laughing and having a good time and I felt like I was dying. I would never wish this on my worst enemy. But, God brought me through this battle. I had to take some medicine for a while to get my hormones back in balance but the most important lesson I learned from this terrible time in my life was this. I could hear God saying to me, Belinda do you trust me with everything in your life? For so long I struggled with this. I realized I was not in control and He is. Anything can happen to us at anytime, but God takes care of us. I finally had to make a decision to give it all to God or continue to let the enemy try to destroy me. I know who I belong to and it is not Satan. God is my Father and I know He loves you and me and there is nothing we cannot get through when we say, Yes Lord! Girlfriend's times will come in your life and I pray you know that God will see you through and that you will have friends around to remind you of His love.
Yes, I left Hopelessville and moved on down the road to smileyville, May your day be filled with all that is good! Until next time remember you are not alone!